Twinned Emotions
This entry is “inspired” by the way I felt the other day. At the time I had twin emotions racing through me. One emotion was a rage that burned inside me like an uncontrolled wildfire. The other emotion was a deep emotional hurt that ran as deep as the Grand Canyon.
The two emotions fed on each other, screaming one thing at me “DESTROY”. They were screaming at me to destroy anything and everything around me. They wanted me to hurt myself. Thankfully, I was able to keep enough control of my rational mind to avoid giving into these emotions.
It is hard enough to keep control of myself when one emotion goes off the rails, but when they twin up like this it is that much harder. It starts to create a ‘perfect storm’ inside me. Two powerful negative emotions entwine and dance within me at these times, trying to mate to create an even more sinister emotion. They feed off and build on each other, threatening to consume me.
Posted: June 21st, 2012 under Emotional Regulation, My Journey.